I took the window seat. As he sat on the seat right next to mine, I went back two years smiling and realising that it was the same perfume he used back then which I honestly didn’t like much. And of course I never told him.
As the bus started to move, I was sleepy and tired. But I had so many questions that I wanted to ask him. I imagined myself looking into his eyes and looking for an ounce of truth, just to assure my already mended heart. The rain was just splattering on the window pane and I kept looking out at the dim lights coming from the tall and huge buildings on the street of Mumbai.
As we travelled away from the airport, the crowd started growing, the roads were busier and yes, the traffic! I , for a while, got lost in the conceptions of my future college in the same city that I was visually perceiving through the misty foggy windows, sitting next to ….. I don’t know what I should call him.
“Are u hungry?” , he asked and I thought I should deal with THIS first, so i could turn to the next chapter of life without any unanswered questions. I just nodded and started looking back into those thick dark panes. I could see a faint reflection of him still looking at me.
As we moved towards the city which would very soon be my favourite, I started talking to him. I noticed his face was tanned and he had dark circles. He had lost lots of weight. “I have collected some college forms for you.” He vividly explained about the academic courses offered in different colleges in Pune. So by now, I knew, he wanted me around.
The four hour journey from the Mumbai airport to Pune was great. We reminisced about the three months we had together in Kolkata. The early morning walks, the meetings with our large and very loud group of friends, who were by the way, completely unaware of our little relationship !! But still the obvious issues were not addressed.
After we reached, it was time to say goodbye, as I was staying in my uncle’s house and he had to leave to his abode ! “We will meet tomorrow.” were his words just before we parted ways yet again. At night I kept staring into the window where the street light was flickering and I slept through the night.
Part 2 .. COMING OUT on 5th August.